Sunday, October 2, 2011

Now I've heard there was a secret chord
That David played, and it pleased the Lord
But you don't really care for music, do you?
It goes like this
The fourth, the fifth
The minor fall, the major lift
The baffled king composing Hallelujah

Tuesday, March 8, 2011




saw rival schools last night, it was a blast. I bought their first cd in 5th grade, I had no idea what the gorilla biscuits or quicksand was, it just sounded like a cool alt band. It wasnt until a few years later when I started getting more into punk/hardcore that I found out who walter was and why he was important. It was really cool to get to see a band that I was listening to a long time ago but too young to go see at that time.

the new album is surprisingly good, I wasn't expecting much.

new song

Monday, March 7, 2011

conversation at work

brian: so what are you gonna be when you grow up?

seamus: hah, miserable most likely.

Saturday, March 5, 2011

I never conquered, rarely came

Sunday, February 27, 2011

attn jay

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GXCh9OhDiCI

this sounds like an acdo song.
"Now I've heard there was a secret chord
That David played, and it pleased the Lord
But you don't really care for music, do you?"

Monday, February 21, 2011

my grandfather died today when i was in 5th grade, its still a bummer

my grandmother always gets really depressed, her being slightly crazy now dosnt help.

Sunday, February 20, 2011

today was eventful.

first i went to my friend trevor's wedding. im excited for him, he seemed really happy. there was alot of people there. most of us were friends and used to hang out, and for some reason or another that stopped. it was a collection of people pretending for a day we were all still friends, nothing is more depressing than meaningless small talk.

after that i went to a local show in sea isle, it was fun.

it was a mix of ska, hardcore, folk/punk, and indie bands. this one girl played , her set was really good but she began talking shit on kids moshing for the hardcore bands. me and george confronted her outside, not in a mean way, i guess just to explain ourselves. she referred to us as a bunch of ex jocks who liked to mindlessly hurt people smaller than us. it bothered me because that was the farthest thing from the truth. most of us were nothing but kids who felt like outcasts, losers, we just didn't fit in. as far as i saw it we were all on the same side, i thought it was cool there was such a diverse line up in a show and everyone was having fun. she was the one building walls, not us. george simply said to her "you know im not a bad person", and its true, he has a huge heart. the whole situation led me to think about why i mosh and enjoy aggressive music (yes i know this sounds corny). Im a quiet, reserved nerd. I love video games, i grew up playing dungeons and dragons, zelda, magic the gathering, and always loved reading and the arts. i try my best to be good to other people and do whats right, and it always ended up in me getting walked all over. for those 15 minutes of a bands set i just get to liberate myself from all the stress and bullshit i dwell on. I run around like an idiot and flail my arms around because its one of the few ways i know how to free myself. i just kinda black out when i mosh, i lose myself. when a band i love plays i get to lose myself , I let out a lot of the anger and frustration that i bottle up inside and drive myself crazy with. It one of the few things that keeps me going and breaths life into me, it sounds lame but im always thankful i found punk/hardcore music.

anyway, i had a good night. good talks with friends, great music, and for a second being able to forget all the troubles on my mind.




Monday, February 14, 2011

hammerhead

loved this band in highschool. heres a video of them playin at the legion in cape may.
lots of young faces




this was the night people got mashed with shoppin carts. other than that awesome show

braindead (first show)
hammer head
efforts made
upper hand (steves old band)
no end in sight (steves other old band, it was their last show)
bad blood
e 23 (reunion , got cut short by cops)

i know other bands played but i cant remember, it was a fun night besides the obvious bummer towards the end.

Tuesday, February 8, 2011

today in the shower i started zoning out thinking about the future. I thought of where i wanted to be and the things i always hoped i would accomplish. i always wanted a family i could take care of and treat right. a kid i would love the hell out of and try my best to bring up as a good guy. a wife i adore and love. sometimes im not sure if im going to get those things. i than started thinking about all the 2012 bull shit, not that im some firm believer in it, but what if it was true. what if the overall destiny of makind ontop of my small life prevented me from the things i always hoped to have. what if just in general, in some sense or another, my dreams were doomed from the start.

i feel a sense of panic, i feel disoriented, i think i might hate my life right now.

ive been writing my thoughts down in a small note book, i thought it would help get rid of the turmoil ive been feeling in my head. as the amount of free pages to write in dwindles the feeling doesnt seem to even budge



"all day long we talk about mercy, lead me to water lord i sure am thirtsy"

Saturday, February 5, 2011

today sucked.

my morning starts off with me getting stuck in the basement of the apartment building i live in, which made me a little late for work.
soon after i get to work to hear this one co worker said a bunch of dumb stuff, which seems like its been happening alot lately (people saying dumb stuff).
my boss calls me in to tell me im getting a promotion, awesome right?! well a half hour some stuff happened with this one guy in the office whose place i was gonna take, and guess what? im not getting that promotion now.
cause of stupid football it was really busy, all day. which is always kind of annoying.

within 30 mins, i found so much hope and something to be pumped on, and it was smashed in a second. this past month and 4 have been pretty rough. this is all just a bunch of whining and woe is me shit i know, but at the moment, i felt like i was part of some big joke. like god,universe, whatever you want to call it , got bored, and need a good prank to keep him occupied. i think im a good guy, i try my best, i just want to not feel like shit for a day.


end lame teenage rant


i just want a vacation
dear co worker,
you really picked a bad time to say some dumb shit about me to everyone else. i swear once you get fired im fighting you.






edit: this is super rebellious youth right now

Friday, February 4, 2011

2/3/2011

When I was younger
and someone would ask
"what do you want to be when you
grow up?"
I would reply
"happy"
I never thought
happy would be
harder to attain
than say
an
astronaut

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I woke up
to the dog growling at our bedroom door
and come to think of it
id be pissed too
if i was stuck in a room with myself

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richard wanted to do a zine, so ive been trying to get in touch with inner miserable again and do some writing.

Wednesday, January 5, 2011

Sunday, January 2, 2011

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